Jan 31, 2011

14 days in

Well, Ive been at it 2 weeks now, and i'm now 150.9 - 2.1 kg down in the last week. I'm glad because I had a couple of mis-haps, but I kept on going. My goal last week of riding the exercise bike every day didn't happen I'm afraid - I missed Tues, Wed and Fri... but I'll make up for it this week! I'm about to hop back on the bike tonight and its 42 degrees at the moment - so hot, so I'm probably going to head down the beach for a bit later - treading water is pretty good exercise!

So in total over 2 weeks I've lost 6.7kg which I'm very happy with. Gotta keep it up! I need to lose another 17.3 kg by June 30 to ensure I don't lose $1000! Thats over 20 weeks away.... As long as I lose at least 1kg a week, it should be smooth sailing! Although I know its gonna start getting tougher!

Jan 29, 2011

This week so far

Well this week has been tough.
Wednesday was Australia Day and me and my housemate had about 20 people around to our house for a BBQ. I drank too much and I think I had about 4 sausages :(
Thursday night I got home from work all set for cooking a healthy stir fry but my housemate decided to make a chili using all the leftover sausages... he didn't finish until about 10pm by which time I was ravenous, and he offered me some of it, so I had it. It had loads of veggies, but the sausages were the bad part.
Last night I went to a friends house after work - the dinner wasn't too bad, just some pesto pasta with a bit of chicken in it with carrots and beans, but they put on a platter - last time I went to their house, I brought a wicked platter of cheeses, meats etc.. I kinda felt obliged to have some because I knew they bought it especially for me :(
During the day I haven't been bad - still having my toast for breakfast, and healthy roll for lunch. Today I woke up late and there was nothing in the house for lunch, so I had a Subway wrap - just chicken pieces with BBQ sauce and salad - supposedly only 1000 kj so not too bad.

Ive been using the exercise bike, but not as much as I wanted to - Tues night I went straight from work out to a friends house and didn't get a chance, and Wed I was too drunk to use it..! I did use it Thurs night, but then again last night I went out straight from work and got home at 1am so was too tired to use it. I'll use it diligently today and tomorrow, and then the moment of truth is Monday when its my 14 day weigh in... I hope I've at least lost 1kg. That's the minimum I want to lose each week - anything under that I'll be very disappointed.

But despite the setbacks this week I know I just have to keep going and not get despondent. I just need to make sure I keep to my routine when I can and understand that there will always be setbacks - I just need to ensure they don't knock my off the wagon for good.

Jan 24, 2011

7 days in

Well, 1 week in and my 2nd weigh in - 153kg (337.3 pounds). Happy with that - 4.7 kg in the first week! I know a lot of that is fluid etc, but it's a good start. My goal this week is to use the exercise bike at least 20 minutes every day.

Jan 22, 2011

5 days in

Well I meant to post a little earlier with some info about myself. In this post I'll include a picture I took of myself a week ago - be warned its not cool. I hate my body and I need to fix it. I'm 27, male and while I used to play sport when I was younger I'm not active at all now. I mentioned in a previous post that I get puffed out at the slightest of physical activity. I need to change this, and so I've brought an exercise bike into my room. I used it for the first time on wednesday, and I plan to use it every day. I know the novelty will wear off, but I need to stick to this. I've changed my diet dramatically, hopefully not too much so, but we'll see if it's working come Monday - my first weigh in after one week. Im fairly confident as I haven't really been bad this week. Thick multigrain toast with peanut butter (more protein in peanut butter helps keep the hunger at bay until lunch) for breakfast, and then for lunch a double cut multigrain roll with turkey, onion, roasted capsicum, baby spinach and salt and pepper. I use light cream cheese instead of butter as it has a lower kilojoule count. For dinner I've been having chicken stirfrys with bok choy, carots, broccolini (baby broccoli), snow peas and onion. For flavour i use a little peanut oil, soy sauce, garlic and ginger. It actually turns out pretty tasty. I've been having around 200g of chicken as I haven't been using rice or pasta - In the past I've still had carbs in my dinner but I'm going to cut it out this time.
Anyway, the first week has been going well, and I haven't been feeling tooooo bad. First weigh in is Monday and I'll be posting my first results. In the meantime below are 2 pictures of me which I took last week. While I'm too embarrassed to show my face now, I'm hoping that in a year I'll have another photo to put beside each of them which I am proud to show off. I'm a fat bastard I know... but I'm trying to do something about it.


Jan 17, 2011

Day 1

Just got up and weighed myself, unfortunately I put on a bit in the last week or so...
So my starting weight is 157.6 kg/347.44 pounds.
Now the hard work begins..

Jan 16, 2011

D Day tomorrow

So tomorrow's the big day. I start my diet and exercise regime. I've been on holidays for 4 weeks, and I'm also heading back to work tomorrow, so I'm going to try and get into a routine. I know what I need to do to lose weight, I just need to stick at it. My friend has been storing an exercise bike at my place, so I've moved that into my room so I can use it and watch TV shows at the same time. In the challenge to lose 15% of our bodyweight, my 2 friends have a head start on me, and have started losing weight. I weigh much more than them so I'm fairly sure I can catch up fairly easy. That's my first goal - to lose the 15%. I'm now 156.4kg (344.8 pounds)
This equals 23.46 kg (51.72 pounds). It's a lot, but even when I lose that, I'll still weigh 132.94kg's (293 pounds). This is still a lot, and still a long way off of my goal of 80kg, however it will be a very good start. I've taken a couple of photos (sorry, they're gross..) which I'll post with my head blacked out. I have to remain anonymous at this stage as I'm too embarrassed of what I look like. When I near my goal and get a bit of self respect back regarding what I look like, I may post some proper pictures.

I'm going to have pasta for tea tonight - from Fasta Pasta. I'm going to be cutting back take away, so I figured I'd have one final naughty meal. I meant to go to the shops today to buy food and cook a healthy meal that I can divide into lunches, but I didn't have time - it was my Grandma's birthday, so I'll probably do that tomorrow after work.

I'm excited that I'm starting tomorrow and really want to stick with it. In the back of my mind however is the fact that I've 'started' so many times, and then just gone back to old habits. I need this time to be different.

Tomorrow I'll post a bit of an FYI about myself, and include a couple of pictures. I do like those before and after shots that you see, so I'm really looking forward to comparing myself before and after. It's going to be a long journey, but I'm determined to get there.

Jan 15, 2011

Rock Bottom

I feel disgusting. I feel sad. I feel depressed. I feel alone. For the second night in a row I went to bed in tears. I have no-one to talk to about this. I'm so overweight its not funny. Ive tried the CSIRO diet. I've tried a personal trainer. I've tried a dietitian. I've tried various other diets. Nothing has worked. I'm heavier than I've ever been. 156.4kg. That is huge. To get down to 80kg, I need to lose 76.4kg. Do you know how depressing this is. I am completely unfit. I get puffed and start to sweat after walking 100m. I hate this. I hate what I am right now. There are so many reasons for me to lose weight. I'm worried I'll have a heart attack. I went to Subway at 12:30am this evening. I bought 2 footlong subs and 2 750ml Farmers Union Iced Coffees. I came home and ate and drank it all. All of it. 2 footlong subways and a litre and a half of iced coffee. Last night at about the same time I went to Macdonalds and ate a double chicken burger, add cheese (not just a chicken burger, I even asked for an extra chicken patty, and 2 slices of cheese – oh, and extra mayo...) as well as a Big Mac, a double cheese burger and 6 chicken McNuggets. Why I do it I don't know. I like eating. I love food. It's what gets me through the day, and it gives me something to look forward to. But I always feel disgusting after Ive eaten it. I feel depressed and wish I wasn't so lazy and pathetic. I wish that I do something about it. But I don't. I've just had 4 weeks off work. The plan was to be healthy and try and walk every day. I went for 1 walk on the first day of my holidays. Pathetic. I've made a pact with 2 friends to try and lose 15% of our body weight. The first to reach the goal receives $500 each from each of the others. The 2nd who reaches the goal receives the same, and same with the third. So if we all reach the goal, we all break even. We have until June 30. this should be motivation. I'm hoping it is.
I'm lonely. I have awesome friends, who I care about greatly, but I'm very lonely. I used to think about my future wife and wonder what she was doing right at that point in time. I'd think about what she might look like, and what she was like. I've come to the realisation that there's a very real possibility that she doesn't exist. This upsets me deeply. There's nothing I want more than to meet a girl and fall in love with her, and her fall in love with me. I want someone I can talk to and cuddle. I want someone to share my life with. I'm scared I'm never going to have that.
A friend is getting married overseas in August. I need to lose weight for that. My father wants to go interstate in May for his 60th birthday. I need to lose weight for that. I'm embarrassed I'll need to get a seat belt extension on the plane. I want to go to see comedians and other theatre shows, I want to go to the football, the V8's, I want to be able to ride a bus, I want to do all these things without feeling bad for the poor person who has to sit next to me.
I want to lose weight so bad. Starting Monday I'm going to try again. This time I'm going to do it. And I'm going to document it. And I hope you'll share my journey, if anyone actually reads this.

I have to succeed. For my health. For my sanity. For my future wife who I desperately hope exists.