147 Days In

Well, I haven't posted for 6 weeks - I haven't completely lost motivation or put on weight, I moved house and my computer died, so it's taken me a little while to get back online.

The last few weeks have been hard. I've been really slack with the bike, because I find it so boring to do without being able to watch something while doing it. I'd watch tv shows on my computer while on the bike, but now, with it also being really cold, I'm really lacking motivation. I've been eating well, but not 100% of the time, I've gone out a bit, and on weekends I've been struggling a bit. I'm a little concerned about the wedding - I leave on July 28 for canada, and I need to fit into a size 38 pants, and a size 44 jacket. I think I'll be ok with the pants, it's the jacket I'm a little concerned about. My mate is sending me the suit and it should be here in 2 weeks, so I'll know if I need to start starving myself....

I weighed myself this morning and I was 127kg exactly. I'm happy with that - 30.6kg down is a great effort and I know it. What's disappointing is I know if I'd really worked hard the last 6 weeks, I could be under 120, and not stressing about this suit. I'm not sure how it happens, but I know Ive gotta fit into it, but I still do stupid things like ordering that hash brown with my sunday brunch that I know I dont need. And I need to just get back on the bike....

Anyway, at least I'm still going in the right direction. I'll try listening to music on the bike, or something - I have to. I can really feel the fitness I've lost in the last month that I haven't been using it.

People are really starting to notice the weightloss, so thats good, and I had to go out and buy some new jeans, and I need new work pants because they really are just to big.

105 Days in

130.9 kg! total of 26.7 :) Another 1.7kg down. Very happy :)

98 Days In

Well I didn't get to post last week as I was away for Easter. It was always going to be a tricky time!!

I weighed myself last Monday and was 132.6kg - 25kg down!!! I was extremely happy, but was slightly concerned for the Easter break - I set myself a goal of no chocolate which I did break, but only had a few small easter eggs and that was it. Had a few dinners out, and some not so healthy meals, but I tried not to be too bad. No exercise bike either which was not good, but I did get to go on a few short walks. I weighed myself this morning and I was still exactly 132.6kg, so I'm pleased that I didn't put anything back on. I need to get back focus from tomorrow and make sure I try and bike every day and get back into my healthy eating habits.

My next goal is to break 120kg. As I've lost my 15% before June 30, I've ensured that I don't have to fork out any money - with a bit of luck I'll make some if my mates both dont also lose the 15%, but for their sakes I hope they make it.

I have until July 28 until I go to canada for a couple of weeks for the wedding. Thats 13 weeks away. If I stick to a modest 1kg a week, I'll get to 120kg by then, which would really be great, so its good motivation.

84 Days In

Well, I lost 1kg last week bringing me down to 134.5. just .5 of a kg to go until I reach my first goal :)

Gonna be a bit hard over the next couple of weeks as I'm staying with friends over Easter, but have to keep it up!

I'm off sick today.. feel like crap :S

77 Days In

Extremely happy this morning! I really tried hard this week as I'd like to get to my first goal before Easter.. and it looks like I'm going to! I lost 3.8kg last week, to be down to 135.5kg!!! 1.5 kg more this week and I'm at my first goal :) Stoked!!

70 Days In

10 weeks down, and another 1.1 kg lost last week. I'm now down to 139.3. Happy with that since I only went on the bike 3 times, and had a couple of less than healthy meals. Going to really try and get a good number for next week.

63 Days in

Well I was pretty nervous getting on the scales this morning. I'd only used the exercise bike last Monday, and then last week was so busy and I was so tired I didn't get to go on it again. I had 4 days at the Clipsal 500, but I was good and brought my lunch with me on the Thursday and Friday. But it seems I was worried for nothing - This mornings weight was 140.4kg, so another 1.2kg down, which I'm pretty damn happy with since the exercise was fairly lacking (although i did do some walking around the track). I'll be back on the bike tonight and try to ensure I do it every night so that next weigh in I can put a big dent into the 130's. Not far to go until my initial goal of 133kg which means I'll have succeeded in my bet with my 2 mates, and won't have to fork out $1000... hopefully that's only a few weeks away!

56 Days In

Well, I lost another 1.6 kg this week, bringing me down to 141.6kg in total. I'm happy with that, but cautious because today is a public holiday, so I had a pretty long sleep in, and instead of weighing myself at about 7am I weighed myself around 1:30pm.. so I'm optimistic, but hopefully the time difference hasn't swayed things a little - I guess I'll find out when I weigh in next monday! I'm very happy with this weeks results, as I did have 2 days with no exercise, but I played tennis yesterday which was good fun - I used to love playing so I really want to get back into it. I'm having issues with my feet at the moment, so they were really sore after. Might have to see a Podiatrist. I need to be very good this week. A big car race is being run here, and I'll be going all 4 days, thurs, fri, sat and sun. Its very easy to eat bad and drink a lot of beer so I have the be very careful. I'm going to try and pack a nice roll to take so hopefully I can keep away from the bad food, and I'll need to make sure I'm on the bike every night. I'm hoping that next weigh in I can get into the 130's....
Now that I've lost 16 kg, I have 8 to go until I reach my first goal - the bet with my 2 mates. Neither of them have reached their goal yet, and are starting to struggle a little, so I've just got to keep going. Fingers crossed!

49 days in

Another good week. 1.9 kg down, currently 143kg. Gotta keep it up!

42 Days In

Well last week was another good week. Even with a dinner with friends on Friday, which including a sticky date pudding dessert, and taking the family out for a Greek banquet on Saturday, I managed to lose 2.1 kilograms last week, so I was extremely please when hopping onto the scales this morning. It means I'm down to 144.9kg, a total of 12.7 kilograms lost in 6 weeks, which I'm very happy with. It also means I'm over half way to my first goal of losing 15% body weight by June 30 so that I don't have to dish out any money to my 2 mates also doing the challenge. I need to get to 24 kilograms lost by the end of the financial year, so with 17 weeks to go, if I can keep it up and lose at least 1kg a week, I'll be able to make it with time to spare. Which is fantastic. Ive been very good with the exercise, with Friday the only day I missed it. I'm up to 40 mins each time I get on the bike, and I alternate between high intensity and low. It seems to be working. About to get on again now, and I'm hoping to not miss a day this week.

35 days in

I was very scared to weigh in this morning. I knew that I had tried hard over the last week, and if I hadn't lost much, I was going to be very disappointed. I'd done 30 mins on the exercise bike every day except for Saturday when I took a 30 minute walk. Luckily, it's paid off! 147.0 kg today :) Thats 10.6 kilograms in 6 weeks - extremely happy with that! I just need to keep up the good eating and the exercise this week - Friday and Saturday night I have dinners out, so that's going to be tricky, but I'll just have to find something good on the menu. Yay :) It's a much better start to the week than last week!

Keeping on.

Well I'm trying to be really good this week. Been on the exercise bike for 30 mins last night, and 30 mins tonight, alternating between fast pace and low. I need a good week, and I need a good figure for next week. Last week wasn't acceptable, going up 0.1, I really wasn't that bad, but I did have a fair bit to drink, and wasn't good a couple of nights in a row (BBQ's), and I only got on the bike twice, so I can see how I didn't lose anything. This week it's going to be different. I'm going to try my hardest not to drink anything, and not to eat anything bad. I'm hoping for 2+ kg lost this week. I need to be on the bike every day! Works been really busy, my mate got fired last Friday, and I didn't get a position I was really hoping to get, so its been a pretty average last week. Hoping it picks up!!

28 Days in

Well today's weigh in was a source of great disappointment. 150.2... didn't lose anything last week :( Last week was a crap week though, so busy at work, and didnt get on the bike too much. Need to knuckle down this week big time ..

21 days in

Pretty disappointed this week. 150.1kg - only 0.8 kg lost in the last week. The problem is I don't know why so little, I've been really good over the last week, except for a few drinks on Friday night. I've been on the bike almost every day, and I even went for a 45 minute walk along the beach yesterday :( It's a bit depressing as I was hoping for a bigger number than that. I'm really gonna have to try step it up this week :(

14 days in

Well, Ive been at it 2 weeks now, and i'm now 150.9 - 2.1 kg down in the last week. I'm glad because I had a couple of mis-haps, but I kept on going. My goal last week of riding the exercise bike every day didn't happen I'm afraid - I missed Tues, Wed and Fri... but I'll make up for it this week! I'm about to hop back on the bike tonight and its 42 degrees at the moment - so hot, so I'm probably going to head down the beach for a bit later - treading water is pretty good exercise!

So in total over 2 weeks I've lost 6.7kg which I'm very happy with. Gotta keep it up! I need to lose another 17.3 kg by June 30 to ensure I don't lose $1000! Thats over 20 weeks away.... As long as I lose at least 1kg a week, it should be smooth sailing! Although I know its gonna start getting tougher!

This week so far

Well this week has been tough.
Wednesday was Australia Day and me and my housemate had about 20 people around to our house for a BBQ. I drank too much and I think I had about 4 sausages :(
Thursday night I got home from work all set for cooking a healthy stir fry but my housemate decided to make a chili using all the leftover sausages... he didn't finish until about 10pm by which time I was ravenous, and he offered me some of it, so I had it. It had loads of veggies, but the sausages were the bad part.
Last night I went to a friends house after work - the dinner wasn't too bad, just some pesto pasta with a bit of chicken in it with carrots and beans, but they put on a platter - last time I went to their house, I brought a wicked platter of cheeses, meats etc.. I kinda felt obliged to have some because I knew they bought it especially for me :(
During the day I haven't been bad - still having my toast for breakfast, and healthy roll for lunch. Today I woke up late and there was nothing in the house for lunch, so I had a Subway wrap - just chicken pieces with BBQ sauce and salad - supposedly only 1000 kj so not too bad.

Ive been using the exercise bike, but not as much as I wanted to - Tues night I went straight from work out to a friends house and didn't get a chance, and Wed I was too drunk to use it..! I did use it Thurs night, but then again last night I went out straight from work and got home at 1am so was too tired to use it. I'll use it diligently today and tomorrow, and then the moment of truth is Monday when its my 14 day weigh in... I hope I've at least lost 1kg. That's the minimum I want to lose each week - anything under that I'll be very disappointed.

But despite the setbacks this week I know I just have to keep going and not get despondent. I just need to make sure I keep to my routine when I can and understand that there will always be setbacks - I just need to ensure they don't knock my off the wagon for good.

7 days in

Well, 1 week in and my 2nd weigh in - 153kg (337.3 pounds). Happy with that - 4.7 kg in the first week! I know a lot of that is fluid etc, but it's a good start. My goal this week is to use the exercise bike at least 20 minutes every day.

5 days in

Well I meant to post a little earlier with some info about myself. In this post I'll include a picture I took of myself a week ago - be warned its not cool. I hate my body and I need to fix it. I'm 27, male and while I used to play sport when I was younger I'm not active at all now. I mentioned in a previous post that I get puffed out at the slightest of physical activity. I need to change this, and so I've brought an exercise bike into my room. I used it for the first time on wednesday, and I plan to use it every day. I know the novelty will wear off, but I need to stick to this. I've changed my diet dramatically, hopefully not too much so, but we'll see if it's working come Monday - my first weigh in after one week. Im fairly confident as I haven't really been bad this week. Thick multigrain toast with peanut butter (more protein in peanut butter helps keep the hunger at bay until lunch) for breakfast, and then for lunch a double cut multigrain roll with turkey, onion, roasted capsicum, baby spinach and salt and pepper. I use light cream cheese instead of butter as it has a lower kilojoule count. For dinner I've been having chicken stirfrys with bok choy, carots, broccolini (baby broccoli), snow peas and onion. For flavour i use a little peanut oil, soy sauce, garlic and ginger. It actually turns out pretty tasty. I've been having around 200g of chicken as I haven't been using rice or pasta - In the past I've still had carbs in my dinner but I'm going to cut it out this time.
Anyway, the first week has been going well, and I haven't been feeling tooooo bad. First weigh in is Monday and I'll be posting my first results. In the meantime below are 2 pictures of me which I took last week. While I'm too embarrassed to show my face now, I'm hoping that in a year I'll have another photo to put beside each of them which I am proud to show off. I'm a fat bastard I know... but I'm trying to do something about it.

Day 1

Just got up and weighed myself, unfortunately I put on a bit in the last week or so...
So my starting weight is 157.6 kg/347.44 pounds.
Now the hard work begins..

D Day tomorrow

So tomorrow's the big day. I start my diet and exercise regime. I've been on holidays for 4 weeks, and I'm also heading back to work tomorrow, so I'm going to try and get into a routine. I know what I need to do to lose weight, I just need to stick at it. My friend has been storing an exercise bike at my place, so I've moved that into my room so I can use it and watch TV shows at the same time. In the challenge to lose 15% of our bodyweight, my 2 friends have a head start on me, and have started losing weight. I weigh much more than them so I'm fairly sure I can catch up fairly easy. That's my first goal - to lose the 15%. I'm now 156.4kg (344.8 pounds)
This equals 23.46 kg (51.72 pounds). It's a lot, but even when I lose that, I'll still weigh 132.94kg's (293 pounds). This is still a lot, and still a long way off of my goal of 80kg, however it will be a very good start. I've taken a couple of photos (sorry, they're gross..) which I'll post with my head blacked out. I have to remain anonymous at this stage as I'm too embarrassed of what I look like. When I near my goal and get a bit of self respect back regarding what I look like, I may post some proper pictures.

I'm going to have pasta for tea tonight - from Fasta Pasta. I'm going to be cutting back take away, so I figured I'd have one final naughty meal. I meant to go to the shops today to buy food and cook a healthy meal that I can divide into lunches, but I didn't have time - it was my Grandma's birthday, so I'll probably do that tomorrow after work.

I'm excited that I'm starting tomorrow and really want to stick with it. In the back of my mind however is the fact that I've 'started' so many times, and then just gone back to old habits. I need this time to be different.

Tomorrow I'll post a bit of an FYI about myself, and include a couple of pictures. I do like those before and after shots that you see, so I'm really looking forward to comparing myself before and after. It's going to be a long journey, but I'm determined to get there.

Rock Bottom

I feel disgusting. I feel sad. I feel depressed. I feel alone. For the second night in a row I went to bed in tears. I have no-one to talk to about this. I'm so overweight its not funny. Ive tried the CSIRO diet. I've tried a personal trainer. I've tried a dietitian. I've tried various other diets. Nothing has worked. I'm heavier than I've ever been. 156.4kg. That is huge. To get down to 80kg, I need to lose 76.4kg. Do you know how depressing this is. I am completely unfit. I get puffed and start to sweat after walking 100m. I hate this. I hate what I am right now. There are so many reasons for me to lose weight. I'm worried I'll have a heart attack. I went to Subway at 12:30am this evening. I bought 2 footlong subs and 2 750ml Farmers Union Iced Coffees. I came home and ate and drank it all. All of it. 2 footlong subways and a litre and a half of iced coffee. Last night at about the same time I went to Macdonalds and ate a double chicken burger, add cheese (not just a chicken burger, I even asked for an extra chicken patty, and 2 slices of cheese – oh, and extra mayo...) as well as a Big Mac, a double cheese burger and 6 chicken McNuggets. Why I do it I don't know. I like eating. I love food. It's what gets me through the day, and it gives me something to look forward to. But I always feel disgusting after Ive eaten it. I feel depressed and wish I wasn't so lazy and pathetic. I wish that I do something about it. But I don't. I've just had 4 weeks off work. The plan was to be healthy and try and walk every day. I went for 1 walk on the first day of my holidays. Pathetic. I've made a pact with 2 friends to try and lose 15% of our body weight. The first to reach the goal receives $500 each from each of the others. The 2^nd who reaches the goal receives the same, and same with the third. So if we all reach the goal, we all break even. We have until June 30. this should be motivation. I'm hoping it is.

I'm lonely. I have awesome friends, who I care about greatly, but I'm very lonely. I used to think about my future wife and wonder what she was doing right at that point in time. I'd think about what she might look like, and what she was like. I've come to the realisation that there's a very real possibility that she doesn't exist. This upsets me deeply. There's nothing I want more than to meet a girl and fall in love with her, and her fall in love with me. I want someone I can talk to and cuddle. I want someone to share my life with. I'm scared I'm never going to have that.

A friend is getting married overseas in August. I need to lose weight for that. My father wants to go interstate in May for his 60^th birthday. I need to lose weight for that. I'm embarrassed I'll need to get a seat belt extension on the plane. I want to go to see comedians and other theatre shows, I want to go to the football, the V8's, I want to be able to ride a bus, I want to do all these things without feeling bad for the poor person who has to sit next to me.

I want to lose weight so bad. Starting Monday I'm going to try again. This time I'm going to do it. And I'm going to document it. And I hope you'll share my journey, if anyone actually reads this.

I have to succeed. For my health. For my sanity. For my future wife who I desperately hope exists.